Tuesday, March 6, 2012


Good morning everyone. I am alittle short on time today, but I just wanted to check in and say hi. I have a few new followers and I'd like them to know that the blog they signed up to follow IS about following the Belly Fat Cure, and a low sugar, low carb lifestyle. But it is also about my life, my feelings, and my world. Really, when you think about it,  all of those things are wrapped up in one package, when we talk about how we eat, why we eat and what we eat. Our life, feelings and our world are all big influences. Getting all of these things in a harmonious balance helps us reach our goals. Keeping all of these these things in harmonious balance keeps us at our goal. Oh, how I can't wait to be at my goal instead of on this journey. Patience....time....practice.....will get me there.

Heading up to my brothers house in a little while. Monday and Tuesdays are my days to be there for the kids. My mom goes up Wednesday afternoons and spends two nights there, and comes home Friday after my brother gets home. So far it's working out well. I wish I was closer than 27 miles, but I guess it could be worse, as at one time he was possibly going to be transferred to Connecticut.

The kids are wonderful and as sad as this situation is, they do make me smile and I find myself leaving the stress of my world, and focusing fully on them and their world when I'm there. I don't blog, do pinterest, check email or text messages. I leave my social networking addiction at home!We go through the motions of an ordinary day. But it will be a long, long time before any day seems as ordinary as before. Maybe it will never feel that way, especially for the kids and my brother. Maybe with patience...time...practice, things may seem better for them.

 Today is the 2 month anniversary of Beth's death. I can hardly type those words. It still seems like a bad dream to all of us. Still so unbelievable, that a life force as brilliant and vibrant as hers could be snuffed out. Where is that force now? Where is that spirit? I long to feel it, long to get a sense of her being again. I wish I had hugged her longer when we last said goodbye. I wish I knew I would never see her again. I think I would have said so many things that were in my heart. Things I took for granted that she knew. I hope she did. There's a big lesson here. I'm trying to keep that in mind. Don't take anyone for granted. They might not be here tomorrow.
I find myself hoping that the kids especially will not pay any attention to the date today.  That often happens. We forget the actual day of the month. They seemed somewhat happy yesterday.  I hope the changing of the calendar doesn't rip them apart again.Why can a date on a calendar conjure up so much meaning, sad feelings and despair? That's how it was last month. I'm hoping it may be better this month. Hoping, but not expecting that to happen. It's just a day. But for them and all of us, at least for the forseeable future, the 6th day of the month will be  a reminder, that on January 6, 2012, our world changed forever.

Thought for the day: When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. ~Kahlil Gibran


  1. Our blogs are about our life aren't they? A gal commented on how she had read through my blog and I wondered how many posts were actually about the BFC? Probably a small number.
    I still think about you and Beth and the family. It will take a long time to reconcile that she is gone. I hope you "feel" her when you feel the love you have for her, when you look at her children's faces, when you have an amazing memory. My heart goes out to all of you.
    You have a wedding to get ready for:)

  2. I can't believe its been 2 months already. I know you are still sad, but at the same time I can tell you really enjoy going over there and hanging with them.
    Have a great day :-)

  3. I'm thinking of you this day. Hoping you guys have a better time of it today. xoxo

  4. Hope everything went well with the kids today. I think it's going to be sad for awhile yet, but at least they have such good support in all of their family. I know Beth would be so happy her kids are being looked after in such a loving way.

  5. {{{HUGS}}} to all of you. I hope today was more peaceful than you anticipated.

  6. It's only been two months...60 days. No wonder the sadness is still so fresh. You're showing Beth right now how much you love her, by the care you're giving to her children. She knows all those things you have in you heart. You said them Pattie-you said them in hundreds of ways over the years.
    Take Care

  7. Hey Pattie! I don't know why my blog wouldn't show up on your dashboard. That makes me sad. :( I'm glad you manage to visit me every now and again anyway! I wonder who I'm missing, that I don't realize....

    Anyhow, I found some jelly jars and some of those cute little mason jars in my cupboard and filled them up with the flax muffin recipe earlier this week - perfect! Have a great day!