In case you are just following my blog, my beloved sister-in-law tragically passed away on January 6. My mom and I are trying to fill in the blanks and help my brother with his two children, ages 11 and 15. But there are so many blanks to fill in, and try as we may, we are just not mommy. But we are trying.The best way we know how, we are trying to make their lives as smooth and normal as this abnormal situation can be. And so it goes. Day, by day, the calendar changes. People ask, how it is going. I answer, not well, but we go through the motions. I suspect it will be that way for a long, long time. We are all trying to act normal, breaking down alot, picking up and carrying on, and trying to get back to whatever the new normal now will be.
So many times, when we are sick, or preoccupied, or stressed, we say we will get back on track on .........( fill in the blank here). I have been really trying to follow my BFC eating plan. Where I am failing is in writing down what I eat ( always has been a struggle for me to do this), but I can almost keep track in my head, because one of the only good things coming out of this tragedy, is that I am not finding time for regular meals, or they are very hurried, and I don't eat much. So the scale was favorable today again on weigh in Wednesday, and I'm down another pound. It almost leads me to believe, that sometimes our food challenges might be related to not being busy enough with other things, and we tend to focus on eating, and what we will be eating, and when we will be eating, and who we will be eating with. Now, I'm eating to live, not living to eat as I always was before. I often don't have time to think about what I am going to eat next. And for me, as a food obsessed person, that may be a good thing.
I want to say that I am trying to keep up with reading all the blogs. Please don't think I am no longer a part of our tight blogging group. I often just get in enough time to read a blog or two, and I don't have time to comment. I know how important it is to comment and give feeback, and participate. But for now, dear friends, I need a pass. I am with you, and I'm not abandoning our blogfriendship ( is that a new word I invented?), but running a business and driving up to my brothers, 40 minutes each way several times a week, is taking up alot of time. I hope life will take on more of a routine in a few weeks, but for now, I have to keep alot of balls in the air...and I never was good at juggling.
I am so happy to see those new bloggers, and I hope they find the support and friendship that I have found on these blogs. I don't have any words of wisdom tonight except this. Some of us bloggers have had great success, and some others are struggling ( me talking here!) and are barely inching towards our goals. But small steps are steps, so don't give up. Whatever spot you find yourself in, and however many times you mess up, remember that there is no judgement, no scolding, no one who will look or talk down to you here on these blogs. You will only find love, support, encouragement and good advice. No matter how far you have to go, no matter how far you have fallen, or no matter how far you have succeeded in the quest of your goals, this is right where you need to be to accomplish them.
Sending you all love and the biggest hugs, from me to you!
Thought for the day: "Few men during their lifetime come anywhere near exhausting the resources dwelling within them. There are deep wells of strength that are never used." Richard E. Byrd