Sunday, January 8, 2012
The last time ever I saw your face......
Dear friends, I am sorry to keep posting sad blogs. It's where I am right now. So sad, so mad, so tired. My little nephew broke my heart today. He had circles under his eyes. He said 'Aunt Pattie, I always have bags under my eyes.' He is so quiet and sensitive. He is hurting and nothing seems to help. This is how it should be. Nothing can help when your world has been ripped apart. I told him that I would be there and Grandmom would be there, and although everything had changed, we would try to make sure nothing else changes. He will get his braces on, go to baseball practices in the spring and get picked up from school when he needs to be. I hope this brings him some comfort, although sadly, his pain is so new and raw. His older sister is being the brave girl. Trying to be involved in the planning, comforting everyone else, trying to step into her moms shoes. This will hit her after Wednesday's service. We will be there. to try and pick up the pieces.
This is my very last memory of Beth, and the very last time I saw her. It was Christmas Day at my house. Her and my future daughter in law were cracking themselves up, trying to make some words....okay dirty words...out of little petit four Christmas cookies that someone sent. Not really obscene words but silly sayings out of the word Merry Christmas. They came up with the saying, 'Cram your ____" and the two of them laughed until they couldn't breathe. It was hilarious to watch how much fun they were having acting so silly. My very last memory of Beth, was Beth being Beth. Always funny, always smiling, always being the life of the party. I couldn't have known she would be gone just 11 days later. I'm grateful for the memory now. It was truly Beth at her best.