I read about all the weight loss successes and I realized that I have been a BFC devotee for over a year and a half. I'm embarassed to say I've only lost a few pounds. I don't even feel worthy to be blogging about something that I'm not actually succeeding at. Most of you have lost 30, 40, 50 pounds in a much shorter time. That being said, I have noticed so many benefits over the time that I have been eating whole grain carbs and very little sugar. I follow this plan because it makes sense to me, and I feel better. My skin looks better, I don't have wild food cravings, elimination is more regular, and I have more energy. I know sugar had an addictive hold on me, and I really feel that I've broken free. I can look at cakes, cookies and candy, and not start salivating and thinking I have to have that. It's liberating to realize that food doesn't have the control on me it once had. Have I been perfect...hell no!Have I had bad days? Most definitely. However those bad days most always involved carbs and being over my limit, not sugar. I read about the little slips and falls that everyone else has, but the losses eventually come and I wonder what are you doing that I'm not? I go down alittle, then up alittle. Two steps forward, three steps back. I'm basically maintaining with very small drops here and there. My endocrinologist says this is a common among her thyroid patients, and it has been very hard to get my blood levels regulated. My medication seems to change every few months, and she just added another. So this may be a contributing factor, but it has to be more than that. I know we've talked about the wine and eating out. Both things can be hard to manage. Yet Kay eats out alot, and Dawn has her wine and they have had success. What do I have to do that I'm not doing?
I know that with my lifestyle, the eating out is not going to end. My husband and I both work late hours and it's easier to stop and get something rather than mess up the whole kitchen and clean up late at night. When we do eat out, it's usually at a local place, not a fast food place. I don't get pasta, I push away the bread or tell them not to even bring it, and make pretty good choices in my opinion. I'm hoping once I get the new girls trained, I will be home more often and start to cook more. I do love to cook. I also know that I drink too much wine. That's another thing that's not going to change...giving up the wine I mean. So I have to figure out how to make it work in my daily diet. I think the calories of this do count, even though Jorge says not to count calories. I love my daily two glasses of wine. Is it sometimes more? Yes, often it is. We go out with friends alot, and have lots of get togethers with family and friends. So on the weekends, it can be more. But there have been many weeks that I have had a loss and I've still had the wine.
What about portions? We've all talked about that, and we are not supposed to count calories and we're supposed to eat until satisfied, I know I take in too many calories and I've always had a problem with portion control. I like to track on fatsecret, so you can't help but see the calories that they recommend fo you and also what you take in every day. Am I eating too large a handful of nuts, too big a piece of cheese, too many almond flour pancakes??? Well yes I am...especially the latter. Let me explain as I sit here with a full belly and lots of regret.
I got up this morning, and said.... I am going to succeed at this plan...... I am going to tell my blogging friends that I feel unworthy to even be talking about the BFC because I'm all talk and no action....I am going back to the gym on a more regular basis.....I am going to take the time to make a recipe that I have been putting off...and I will keep tracking and keep on following the BFC plan that I really do believe in. So I got up, hit the gym, did a good 30 min cardio on the elliptical, another 30 minutes of free weights, some stretching, lots of water, and home I went. I walked the dogs around the block, fed them and then it was time to feed me. I went to Rosalie's blog and decided to make the almond flour pancakes. I printed out all her recipes to have handy and set about to make the pancakes. So at the end of the blog, I see that the whole recipe has 4 sugars and 24 carbs. I make the batch and it makes about 5 pancakes. Five big, fluffy, golden pancakes. Wow, I think, this is alot of food for a s/c count of 4/2. So I plate them up, add a pat of 'I Can't Believe It's Not Butter', and some Josephs sugar free syrup. They were delicious! Slightly dryer than regular pancakes, but really good. I'm thinking as my belly is getting full, that I can't eat all of this. I'm getting full. So on I go, right past this feeling, because it's been so long since I've had real pancakes, and these taste so good, and wow, how can I be so lucky to be able eat all of this. Isn't the BFC great I think? So here it comes. I go to put this recipe in the my fitness pal tracker, because it will calculate your recipe counts. Here's what it says:
|Bob's Red Mill - Finely Ground Almond Meal/Flour, 112 g||640||24||4||12||24||56|
|Generic - Egg, Large, 2 egg *||140||1||0||0||13||14|
|Blue Diamond Almond Breeze - Unsweetened, Original, Almond Milk 40 Cal/1cup, 0.25 cup||10||0||0||0||0||1|
|Olive Oil - Olive Oil, Extra Virgin , 30 ml or 1 TBSP||240||0||0||0||0||28|
|Truvia - Sugar Substitute, 1 packet||0||3||0||0||0||0|
1030 CALORIES!!!! Unbelievable!!! Do you see the calorie count? I might as well went to Denny's and had a Grand Slam breakfast. I am so full right now. When these pancakes came off the griddle, I looked at these pancakes and said to myself, Pattie you don't need all of that. But the little voice in my head answered,, well, it's only 4/2 and you're under the 5/2 that meals are supposed to be at. Damn that little voice in my head!
So what to do? I'm pretty full right now and hopefully will be right through lunch. I have to shake it off. When you know better you do better. No sense fretting about it. I feel better spilling it all out, and you all have been the best support system. I am in this for the long haul. I've done some reevaluation and I'm going to tweak things a bit. I have to take this one day at a time and recommit daily. I know I need to get control over the stress in my life, to slow down a bit and not let the busyness of my days stop me from planning and tracking and exercising. Last night my husband and went out for sushi. We had wine with dinner, but when we got home I made us both a cup of the decaf chocolate mint tea to sip while we watched some tv. It was nice and we both agreed we didn't miss that glass of wine we usually have when we watch tv.
So I'm still going to blog and hang out with you my dear friends. I've confessed my faults, weaknesses and shortcomings. Whether I lost weight or not, I know I eat better and feel better and I am healthier following the BFC, so I'm going to keep on keeping on ( a la Sherri!) Thanks for listening! Hugs to you all from me!
Thought for the day: If it seems to good to be true.....it probably is!